I really miss the old u.. who are concern,care and talk to me nicely like before.. who always text me when im far from u,otp with me.. take good care of me very well when im sick.. bedtime candle light.. now averything change,we rarely talk before go to bed, kiss my eyebrow till i fall asleep.. i miss those time when u pampered me with whole ur heart.. i know u change to be a pure gerl,but i dislike ur attitude which u like to shout at me,scold me with all those harsh word.. it really kill me deeply inside, u are way more emotional and sikit2 nk melenting.. seriously i kecik ati actually the way u treated me now.. i dun want to say all this because i dun want we argue, with u temper.. it really hurts me, it not tht i cant take joke or harsh play it just tht my heart cant take too much harsh words which is from my love one.. and yet i accidentally read ur fb msg, and it bleed my me inside.. u ask me not to contct any guys,yet u the one who contcting guys recently which is on tues while im working.. if friends asl tk blg? I just need honesty in our r/s.. if u want to be straight, tell me.. im okey with it.. if u not willing to patch bck in our r/s im okey with it, it just tht i need th truth.. no hiding and contcting other guy behind my back.. tht all i ask for.. i hope u understand wht im trying to say.. i tk mrh, cume i just need u to be truthful to me.. ily.. in wht decision u made, i accept it dgn redha.. tk pyh la jage perasaan i sngt, i tknk cinta kerane kesian.. kesian tk bwk kemane.. i nk ikhlas.. bukn terpakse..
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Happy 39th monthsary body builder montelku!! Ily manymany appreciate wht u have done all this while.. love u always ♥ #xoxo #020111 #anniversary #stay #home
Hai.. it been a long time i didnt update my tumblr since i have been busy for this few wks.. im physically and mentally tired.. this mnth is being soo cruelly towards me and my sister too.. haishhh.. it too long to let it out here,wht happen etc.
Wht i wanna say here is tht i really miss my ibu,b.wan and especially my beloved bby sister.. i really miss her damn much since the last day i get to meet her is the day before i was chased out from home which is on the 22nd feb 2014.. i really hope that next two weeks i get to meet her soon and thnks to my body builder for helping me and my two lovely sister two for a place to stay in sg.. hais.. i tried to occupied my time hrs by working,lepaking just not to thing wht happening to me on that feb.. it a nightmare and worst day for me..
I hate the feeling when you have to say goodbye to someone you want to spend every minute with.
I have tried to let you go and I cannot. I cannot stop thinking of you. I cannot stop dreaming about you.
This is what i am going through now
Waktu ketika we are clubbing.. and buat bende mepek together.. yrs by yrs.. there is too much memory u and i.. seeing all those pic it flashback when the first time we party together and the moment we argue on the club and mcm2 lg ar.. i miss those moment when we are together,sleep in one blanket,share our pillow,irritate by mimi,ur hug,ur kiss,ur smell,we shower together and too much to remember.. saket hati,happy,trippo sume ar same2.. it hard for me and i know it hard for u too but we are doing now is for our own good rite? This separation is unexpected and eventhough im not ready and not strong to face this,i try my very best to be one untk kiter back to our straight life.. nisa harap kiter akan together eventhough one fine day we found our partner life,and we still cn be good friend cose u the only one who understand me and i always understand u.. i hate seeing u crying,cose it break my heart into pieces.. i still cant found someone like u who sacrifice a lot,love me with ur whole heart,sincere,accept my imperfection,who cried for me.. i miss every sgl thing abt u and us :’( nisa tau sume ni ade hikmah dgn ape yg terjadifor this 2014.. and nisa redha and nisa hrp bai cn move on to ur straight life.. much misses and love my body builder :’) xoxo ♥♥
I know being with me is not easy. But I want you to understand no one has me, or has ever had me, except you.
It been three yrs we have been together.. and i till these day u choose ur bro yg tk bergune tu.. and u back up them den me.. who go through with u up and down with u.. and word is hurt.. i care abt u eventhough we are no longer attach.. those pic are the memory we had for thia three yrs together.. and i just so sad and disappointed they way u backup them all. So from now own u go find ur bro dun find me anymore. I gues that will make u happy rite.. aku redha ngn sume ni.. aku care psl kau,kau backup dorg.. gold job ar bai.. sumpah aku saket ati and aku down giler. Im hate u beinglike this.. ur attitude ur ego like.. mmng kau sng kene influence.. i habe nothing to u anymore. Go ahead… aku back off :’(
If u were a boy.. im sure wont let u go.. it been 3yrs together and it hard to explain how to explain this feeling.. if only u were a guy,im sure we are married and have kids.. but the facts is we are same gender,and i dun need u too transplant just because off me.. tkyah nk tambah dosa lg.. no matter what, u are the best i ever had.. im not regret knowing u and love u for this few yrs.. and i want we go to the right path as we are growing older and older each yr… #xoxo #mypast #b.b #mybodybuiler #oneinamillion #memory♥
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